Merry Christmas Happy year year.. yadda yadda yadda

So it's been a long time since I've nerded out and updated this thing. After Derek mentioned it, I figured New years eve would be a great time to update so then you can see one of the last things I thought about in 2009.

Man what a year. Soo many ups and downs. I can't believe how much I hated yet loved this year. Bad things, that happened were Boscov's, Subie, and Sickness. One of the best things that has happened to me this year is Derek. He's actually one of the best things that has EVER. happened to me. :) I love him so much.

Im really excited that Andrew is my new roommate. It's so weird yet awesome in the same way because Andrew has been one of my best friends since the summer of 11th grade. Hes just, wow I have known him for so long and we've been through so much as friends, and now were going to be living together. That's so awesome. haha Its really great to see how much everyone has grown up, and how much we have all been though, I myself have had some of the hardest times in this year alone,but I have been inspired by so many people. I feel so loved, even if some people are still mad at me. We all have a lot of growing up to do, and some day things may be better between us.

I can't believe how much weight I've lost. Seriously, it's so awesome I feel a lot better about myself. And you ask how did I notice the change? Well, besides the obviousness of none of my old clothes fitting me and, now when I make small purchases when I see something I really like, I can actually get a Medium. and That's probably nothing awesomely interesting to you, but to me I can't believe how awesome it feels. And the less obvious to those other than Mogarth (yeah that's right) and I, is my ring size, went from an 8 1/2 ( OMG *embarassing*) to a 7. (yeah a 7!) Okay Im done nerding it out for the day.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

TRANSFORMERS...

Robots in disguise! ..


Yeah, Neeeeeerd I know.. but check this out!


Ravage looks so bad ass in this picture haha




There's more!




And...








And then...






I also took a few on film but I think are a bit blurry, but nothing I can't try to fix :)

Enjoy.

Ah wisdom

Idyllically everything in life should flow as beautifully as music does, but as most of us we know that it doesn't. In every ones life including my own at times I feel like there are big chunks missing. Like right now I should be including about 8 different individuals in my life, on a day to day interaction but I don't have time. That's not an excuse either. I just don't have time. I feel bad, but as one should suspect this was going to happen. Good people stick by you through thick and thin. They don't leave your side when you cant full fill a promise. I know I haven't been the best, and I know we've talked about this on various occasions but I feel as though its not getting through to some people.  People come and go and whether or not they are always in your life, and when they are absent those are the times you should cherish them the most, Good friends always come back.

Im on a music spree again. I started updating my Itunes today, So far I have added 12 new discographys! Thank you internet.

Well I have some things to work on before my final today at 4.

So peace out... uh.. homies?  <---(Ohho ho ho, I'm clever.)

Im bad at this

Im at work currently. It hasnt been too long of a day, I love working at the flower shop. I know I've mentioned that a few times, but I love it haha. I cleaned flowers today, all I have left to do is clean out the fish bowls which should be easy and then Im going to help Derek with a photo project after work.

Dere and I got a new frog this last week, but all he really ever wants to do is hide under the dirt. Scardy cat.

I started writing this post at 11 this morning its now 3:00 thats just how busy it gets here. Im eating my awesome lunch which consists of a sandwhich (hard salami and mozerella cheese) chips and a granola bar. Derek made it and brought it into me. (he's the best) Im really excited to go up to my nanas today and get some cookies and food! i really dont want to stay up there long though, it sucks lol.

Well i have to go sweep the floor.

Cya all later.

All two ppl who read this, ha.

It's been a while.

This is the first time I've updated in a while. Things are going good, I love my job at the flower shop. Cc's is going pretty well too.

Everythings been..

Alright, I suppose. I work a lot and I school a lot. I havent done much else. Bought an awesome jacket this week, (and yes, I am putting money aside) but I think I earned to buy myself something. Since it's the first actual time I have my own money.

Other than that I haven't really been up to much. Made dinner the other day, it consisted of:
Pulled pork with bbq sauce and a homemade dry rub.
Gouda mac and cheese with bacon.
And glazed carrots.
With a black and white cookie for desert.

It was awesome.
Im tired, and just finished my test for class.

Today..

Is going to be long. But Its more than half way over. I went to work. Worked. Now Im home resting, before I go to work again. lol First day Im excited but at the same time, I'm already exhausted. I want to shower before work so I look/smell presentable not that I don't smell good now, but I worked already so I need that fresh new start feeling. haha. Ramen is so good. I am so tired. lol But excited for this weekend none the less..

Well This update sucks.
Im out.

Sex drugs and cocoa puffs...

Is by far my favorite book of all time. As of right now. I really like it.

As for other things. Work? Fucking amazing. my boss loves me and she and her daughter are both sweet hearts. and I'm doing just awesome at it. Actually, all of my training will be complete in one week.
School is going great, I haven't been really doing much which surprises me being my senior year and all. But I'm excited to be finished, as for now. I get to pick my classes next week this should be fun.

Had sushi yesterday, it was so awesome. I;m super excited for the "trip" coming up this weekend. It should be so much fun. I love music videos. Last night Joe Tomlin! derek and I just watched a bunch of awesome videos, I have to remember all of the great new ones he showed me. It was so much fun. Def gonna hang out with Joe Tomlin more! I hope he didnt cut his hair, but if he did Im sure it will look good as well.

Other than those little things, I've been alright. Busy, so busy. but its all good.

Im really happy with Derek.

Love
Twove.

First off...

I guess I really have no right to say what a bad friend is, because a lot of times I fit that persona. but, I will say.. that when it comes to hurting someone else and I can observe it, then I have the right to speak up. I know I'm not the best at always being around and I know I'm not super great at being an awesome friend. Anyhow, Please do not tell someone that if you are around you'll hang out. But then, show up later with someone else and just leave. With out giving much recognition to that person. at least that person could of called and said, oh I'm doing this. sorry We can hang out some other time. I just think the whole situation could of been handled better.

Anyways, I have bigger fish to fry.

Am I a bad person? I mean, lately I've been avoiding hanging out with some family members. Well, not really avoiding it. I just, I don't know, Kutztown to the Skook is quite a drive for only a few hours. I love them both to death, but I really have nothing to do up there.  And I know just giving my time would be awesome, but I just can't get myself to do it. It's not like I don't want to, I just have a shit ton of things to do with school, and I just started working again.  I don't know, maybe I need to prioritize. Im not sure though, every one in this situation seems pretty happy with their lives. Idk.

But i have to shower.
Power

Why

Does Kutztown have to be so damn cold. It looks so nice out. and then you get out there and you're like FREEZING!

Im tired of ppl puking/pissing off the fire escape. Show some fucking respect and stop it. Asshole.

Im doing pretty good. Really want to get out and take those pics so I can develop them. Well, have Derek develop them I really do love photography it's a shame I stopped doing it for so long. I guess thats what happens when you have to "grow" up. You lose the luster for things you love. Or at least, I did for a while.

Throg was being awesome yesterday and was sitting on top of his branch. He's awesome.

Well Im out
Stout

I was

really down before but now I'm doing better. I think Derek is coming down with a cold, but I think I might have it as well. Sucks. I start work tomorrow :) That does make me happy. I'm so tired right now. But that's okay because its too light out to go back to sleep. The days I'm jealous of Brandons room. haha. Im kinda hungry. But I have a few things to do before 10:50 Am. Soo. Derek set up a manual camera for me to start using. I'm really excited I took an awesome picture ( or at least I think it will be awesome, cause I took it in digital as well) yesterday. Once I have it uploaded. I will show it to you! "Uploading process"






And of course, you cannot forget Throg.






But like Jinx he's a scardy cat...






Yeah. so thats what I'm starting with those are in  digital but I did take some of them with Manual.

My hands are soo cold haha.

Well, I have things to do.
So I'll catch you later pooh.
--Schmoo

I'm a ..

Really shitty person. Or at least that's how I feel. I wish sometimes I didn't suck so much. Or hurt people. I really hate myself. Im super tired, and really sad. I want to take a nap. I don't know why I let myself get this way, I had a great time last night. I dont know, just feeling down. cause I suck. and everyone knows it.

Im so tired of..

Being sick. Last night was my first attack since June/July. It wasn't too bad, but it's not fun. I hate it so much. I wish I didn't get sick. I just want to be healthy. :(

Other than that, today after Derek gets off of work I'd like to go to the park and fly the kites we have in the back of the car. I'm really excited. I think it would be a lot of fun. It's warm out too, ugly but warm. So last night was halloween night at shorty's and before we could ever get down the fire escape we could smell the alcohol coming off of the drunks. And of course, a lot of girls were dressed super slutty. But, living in Kutztown that's nothing different from other thrusday through Saturday nights.

Am I too mean? I don't think so, but then sometimes after I say thing I feel like I could be a little nicer.

Well, tonight is Halloween So happy Halloween.

I really wish..

I could just kick out drawings as well as my friends. Yesterday, I was in my basement at my house with Derek, and we found a watercolor I did in 7th grade. It looks so awesome. Why can't I do that anymore? I also found shit from my 7th grade print making class, which were awesome as well. Now I just suck. When did I learn to not be able to draw? grr I guess I'm just frustrated.  I've been working on a drawing for three days now, haven't gotten very far but its coming along nice. So I'm excited.

Edit:::

I learned how to develop film today. It was so awesome. Derek taught me, I had such a good time. I can't believe how much fun we have together. He truly is a great person <3

We drove around for the last couple of days taking pictures here and there with the pin hole camera he bought in Rome. And then we went to the lab once the roll was finished he showed/taught me how to develop it. I had a really really good time. We went to the park in Kutztown and I got to do the slide and the merry go round. which I love, and we played tennis. Im so happy <3

So later
Alligator 

I am

Super tired.  I didn't sleep very well last night, went to bed kind of down.  But, I'm feeling better now just kind of tired. I have to go up to my grandparents today. I mean don't get me wrong I love my nana and kara, but I hate the drive up there. I think I'll get Derek to do it. Oh yeah, he got his permit, I am so proud of him!  Umm, Yeah I start working one week from now which I'm excited about. I have to brush up on a few things, but I think I'll do fine.

I really feel like showering. but I'm also at that point where I'm kinda too tired to do it. Im getting kind  of tired with Facebook as well.   I mean at times its fun, and others its like, oh.. same old shit. I don't know why I've been so tired lately. I think its just from school and all of the other things I've been doing.

Im excited to do my music reviews today!

Oh yeah, when we go up to my nanas today we're picking up the Atari and a bunch of games for that and the nintendo. I'm so excited for that..Fuck yeah, how many people can say, yeah so I went to this awesome persons house and played atari...Okay sounds really nerdy but IT'S NOT. swear.

Yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm super nerdy. But a really cool kind of super nerdy.

I really want to pick up another hobby. I really don't have many. but that's cool I think. Idk. lol

Oh yeah, Im gonna go draw now, I've had this idea for a few days and I wanna try it.

So peace out.
Girl scout.

So I killed a (wo) man...

Well, at least that's what I lead Derek to believe.

STORY TIME!

So today on the way home from my job interview a lady needed my help jump starting her car. I blocked traffic on main street for about half an hour, I had to run to the apartment approximately 2 blocks. When I BUSTED through the door all I could manage to say was. LADY CAR COME NOW. lol

Needless to say, noone was hurt, a cop came.. and NEITHER Derek NOR Brandon knew how to jump the car. lmao.

Good times.

Job interview, went awesome.

Disappointed...

In those who have not updated. And in the weather for being a shit head :( Raining. Pffft

Im excited for this weekend. Idk why though. lol

And Im terribly bored lol

If tomorrow is beautiful

I really want to go outside and draw, maybe i'll go on the roof and think and listen to music.I'm really excited about the job interview tomorrow, just because when I picked up my applicaiton there were so many odds against me. Like I came in four days after they put the sign up, and had about 100 applicaitons already in, and the guy was like, well i dont know, we have a lot but Ill give it to you, don't be upset if you don't get a call for a while. That was Friday, I got called Monday. Pretty stoked!

Other than that, I've just been keeping up with school. Did awesome on some of my midterms! well one. cause I only technically had one so far, but i have to do that stupid model thing. But it should be easy.

I'm going to check out these books, Sex drugs and cocoa puffs
electric kool aid acid test.

And ttttthats alll for noooow ffff olks.

Today was

Mediocre nothing too big happened. Went to allentown with Derek to look at camera's and get a roll of film developed for Brandon. Then came back to the apartment took a nap and now I'm waiting for class at 4. Sounds awesome. I know..

Other than that, I haven't made a post because I've been awfully busy with things lately. But, I promise to keep you informed.

Oh yeah, Job interview tomorrow!

COSTUME PARTY!

I am sooo excited! I really really really want to wear my outfit lol. So I have some stupid flashcards to do today, and clean up the kitchen for the party tonight.

(Side note) Brandon is making bacon and it smells soo good! lol. I really want breakfast. and to go back to sleep totally not ready to be up yet.

I talked things out with Derek yesterday, about why I've been so down so upset the last couple of months, I feel so much better, and even if it wasnt the nicest talking to, i think we both feel a lot better.  Or at  least, I know I do. I hope he is okay as well. But I'm sure he is.

I'm going to start listening to metal, I like it, but I never really had the opportunity to get into it. But now Derek ( who is super fucking awesome) is going to make a playlist for me every day, of about 5-10 or so songs, I have to listen and write a review about each soon and why I liked/didn't like it.  I am really excited to do it!

Well I guess I'm out
Lemon spout.

I get it, I get it

Things are going alright. I guess I'm still a little uneasy from the other day, but the only thing that can take that away is trust and time. It might take a while again, for me to feel okay about things, but I must say I'm not mad. Just a little let down, a little disappointed. but, I really don't want to dwell on it, or think about it anymore because it just leads to more suspicion and jumping to conclusions. To be honest, that's not who I am, and that's not what I do. Soo.

On a lighter note, I'm really excited about the Halloween costume party at Allison's tomorrow. I think it's because my costume is soooo fucking awesome and cute. A million times better than last year, even if it is almost the same thing with a different outfit. I pretty much bought a child's costume set and I'm so glad I have such a tiny head for it to fit me. lol But you won't know what Im talking about unless you go. Coughandrewcough. (Since he's not coming, and might read this)

Im really excited to watch the new episode of the office, I love that show soo much, and I know some people think its stupid because everything they thought would happened happened. Like Jim and Pam, Angela,Dwight, and Andy. But you have to admit that it has some pretty AWESOME episodes.
Like the fire episode  anddd  dwight.

Yeah, so awesome. I think this is the only show, my entire life I have ever followed. Yeah that's sad.
Well, I did the dishes today, and last night Derek and I cleaned the entire bed room, head to toe, vacuumed and everything. It looks nice. Im just trying to kill time before I go pick Derek up from class, I love not having classes on Thursdays or Fridays, although Im glad to start working again to fill in my time. Exciting I know.

Well thats all I have to say for now.


=======Edit======

Yay Mere is coming to the halloween party tomorrow!

Still annoyed

I can't find my shoe yet, but I think I have an idea where it is.

Im excited about the halloween party!

And yeah, Andrew I know my blog is all over the place sometimes but it's just me, trying to figure myself out. Well it's 1030 and I want to find this shoe so Im gonna go look for it.

Peace out
Girl scout.

Erm..

I can't find my brown polka dotted shoe. And I'm getting a little annoyed because I wanted to wear it today....

That's what's on my mind at the current moment. If I think of more to write, I'll edit later.

I am

In love.

Today was good.

I woke up a little irritated because I had to go move the car so bitch cop wouldn't give us another ticket.  But, other than that it went pretty swell, I finished my extra credit paper for Gupta. I did some reading in organic chem. I have to look up some guy and do some oral shit or something, Although I'm not sure how I'm going to do that, I still havent started my model which is due in three days. I'd really like to get up to the ceramics lab and start working on my tea pot.

I'm really starting to digg the new music I'm looking up. Kinda, I never realized how tedious it is to look for good music, I'm SOOOOOO tired of coming across absolute crap. Not saying that everything I have came across sucks because I have found two good bands Inkwell, and The Jacks. Really digging them.  I'm trying to find bands that are more on the ambiant side, I'm so tired of this gay, ahhh I miss you waaah i love you bullshit. I wanna get a little more hardcore with my music. I mean, I know I come from indie roots, but Im so sorry about skinny little white boys singing like sissy little girls.

I love music so much, when ever I listen to it it makes me sooo happy. It's one of the things I will enjoy for the rest of my life.

I've been thinking about some things and I would love to shadow at a radio station and get a feel for being a DJ, I'd also like to start attending some open mic nights, I know where an AWESOME one is.  It's called the wildflower cafe and its located in Bethlehem pa. I used to work nights there. But like for a month or so they have an awesome open mic night (Mondays& Tuesdays)!!!!!

So excited. We should get a group of people together and go.

I've been really tired lately, but I think it's the lack of sleep and the staying awake. but all I have to say is Saturday night was the best time I've had in a long time. It kinda upsets me that I feel like under those circumstances is the only time we can all ever be THAT close of friends. Not to say that we aren't all close, we just don't always flow that way. And it was really cool, how nice and easy it was to all be so good with each other with out the obvious tensions. I'm proud of us!

I cleaned the bathroom yesterday, and I mean cleaned the shit out of it. Oh yeah, it's probably the nicest room in the apartment.

Well toodles
Lemon noodles..

Yeah.. Well actually, they are zombies so yeah...

Uhhh.. Last night was so fucking awesome for sures..!!!

And that's all I can say

Expanding

my music listening abilities.

I feel horrible.

I think it might be easier for me to update this if I do it when Im feeling it. Like right now. Im in a writy writy mood.  To be honest, I feel really bad about not hanging out with Nicole yesterday, but I have so much to do with Midterms and school and work now. (Oh yeah, I got a job) I just, I dont really feel overwhelmed, at least not yet. I finished my 12-14 page report for pysch. Now I have to do a diagram for organic chem. Write a report on some guy for molecular biology and read a kibillion pages, also I have to do this stupid thing for quantum physics class but I haven't been to that class in like three weeks because my scheduling is all fucked up. errr.  Midterms for the majority are this week, Im not sure when any of my other stuff is done, because the last couple of days I haven't payed much attention to class. With fall break and everything right around the corner who does pay attention? 


Ive been catching up on my music scene lately, with a lot of different bands, I am really getting into MGMT and band or horses, and Artic monkeys. I wish I could do my own radio show like Derek and Andrew. I think I would have a lot of fun with that. Actually, I would love to just be a comedian and do a radio show for the rest of my life, but the income for those two jobs arent exactly appealing.  But, I think it would be a lot of fun.

My puppy died yesterday :( Her name was bear, she was 16 years old this year, and that is a very long time for a lab to live. I miss her very much.  I know I have a picture of her somewhere on the internets and when I find it, I'll post it. She was my first puppy. Like I've had dogs before her, but they were never "mine" Bear was the best dog ever. And I miss her very much.

other than that Im at a loss of words for what else to say other than Nicole I hope you had a great night, and Im sorry I didn't come.

I miss you

I have so much to do.

And so little time to do it.

I have a list of about 12 things i have to get accomplished by today, and I have a feeling thats not going to happen. Maybe you think, I shouldn't be here typing in this blog, that usually noone reads about things I should do. But... this is on my list of things to do.

So in trying to become a better person I think there are ways to go about it.
I have to make a list
stick to the list.
Get things done. No more super procrastinating. No more yeah I can do it later. I have to get this stuff done.

Also Im gonna start going to the gym more. Ya know. doing stuff that actually matters. It should be good times, I'm excited.

I want...

To become a better person. Do things better, make things better.


This is my list of things I want to improve on.

1.  Not letting everyone walk all over me.
2.  Not being so sensitve.
3.  Enjoying more things.
4.  Becoming a better friend/ and person.
5.  Not let the little things bother me.

I'm not saying that Im not happy, I just feel like I'm not the same person I used to be, and I need to improve a lot of things.

So Im going to try now.

anxious

Sometimes I get the feeling that I don't know where I'm going or who I am even though I do know who I am or who I want to be.

Right now I'm feeling really happy, because I had a good day with derek, and I got a job! Oh and I did my deka crap, annnnnd I did a very awesome slab in ceramics! woot I'm on a roll

Well now that I got that out, Im going to do some homework and check out some awesome things.

Soo

Well, Im new to this so I figured I should write something.

My name is Jenn, im 22 years old I live in Kutztown pa.

I go to lehigh university, in my final year.

Ive been doing aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalright, Dating the awesomest person ever.

I like movies, and having fun, Lots of fun.

I have a few best friends, Nicole, Joe, andrew and derek.
 Im really glad to start this thing

So Im new.

My friend and I decided to do this blog thing post to keep in touch and just a way to express things. It's pretty much free to read by anyone who wants to read it.